I need to get this off my chest so my I can stop obsessing and thinking about it- I had a nightmare tonight. It’s not too disturbing, but I’ll put in under a cut because it may be distressing to some.

So in the nightmare I was in my home, and we were having my grandparent, my aunt, and her daughter over for dinner ((and my brother and his fiancee I think)). Bear in mind I thought this was 100% reality because my excess REM sleep makes my dreams intensely realistic, and my family actually is having them come over next month for dinner.

My cousin is twelve years old now, though she acts a lot younger. In the nightmare, I was sitting in the living room; she snuck up behind me and poked me, surprising me. She put her hands on my shoulders. I asked her not to touch me. She grinned and pulled me into a hug. I asked her not to touch me again. She kept grabbing my hand, poking my stomach and placing her hands on me. I repeatedly asked her to stop touching me.

I finally snapped, screaming at her to stop. Everyone looked at me, and I freaked out. I had a panic attack in the living room. From where I’m sitting right now, I can see the exact spot where it happened in my nightmare.

I can’t remember anything after that.