Please just wait.
2013: I was still so ill with an eating disorder that I didn’t even realize was what disordered, I was self harming, had panic attacks daily and had to drop out of highschool because I was so ill I couldn’t go into class.
2014: At the start of the year I was still struggling with my eating disorder, having panic attacks regularly and was pretty miserable. By the end of the year I’d gotten into a college course, had chosen to recover from my disorder but never thought I’d be able to move out or get into University.
2015: I’m a year clean from my eating disorder. I can’t remember the last time I had a panic attack. I have great friends. I got offers from four universities and in four weeks I am moving out to go to a university I love and I am so so excited about my life.
I’ve seen so many suicidal people on my dash lately and as someone has tried to commit twice I can understand how awful you have to feel to get there. But if either of those attempts had been successful I never would have been around to see my life now. It get’s better, you just have to be there to see it
