I’m trying to cry quietly so my parents don’t hear me.

I’m so sick of being sick, and today it’s just getting to me more than usual. I have to keep asking my parents for more money to pay for all these doctors and medications- they’re giving me the money, but I feel so bad that on top of college they have to pay for all this crap. Six doctors, six prescriptions, scans and bloodwork… it adds up so much and it feels like I’m constantly in a doctor’s office being diagnosed with new problems while barely managing the current ones. I try so hard to stay positive but it’s just so hard being so sick all of the time. I spend at least $1,100 per month for medications and appointments and treatments. In a year that’s more than my college tuition. I feel like such a financial burden and emotional burden, but I can’t pay for all of this without my parents’ help. I can’t even make enough money to buy food for the month with my part-time job. 

I know I’m whining but it’s just so difficult and it’s really getting to me today.