So my mom is withholding my “allowance” (the money I use to exist). They (her and dad) made me move back in with them which is 20 minutes away from ANYTHING at best so a job is off the table. She refuses to use my correct name and pronouns, and when she does attempt it she treats it like a game or a burden, even though she knows that it pushed me towards three out of four of my suicide attempts. I feel isolated and in the middle of nowhere. I can’t save up to live with my girlfriend again because, again, a job is impossible right now. I’m disabled physically and mentally (I will soon be admitted to a facility for a month so that’s another reason I can’t yet apply for any jobs), stuck in a place where I can’t do anything, and my mental health is further deteriorating at an alarming rate by having to stay there.
What the hell do I do? What I need to do is earn some money but that’s damn near impossible. I’m so stressed and sick of living there, in a house where I’m not respected and my identity is treated like a joke.
All I want is to see my girlfriend (I have to pay to take a ferry every time I go to see her) and to be able to buy a new binder (I’ve had the same two for years) and just be able to save up money to get out of this situation. I’m so desperate and hurting at this point.
