There are a lot of times where I really resent having them. Growing up with them was really awkward; I never got to have a great social life because I was always on edge, afraid that one of the crew would come out. I never really had close friends either because I was so desperate to hide my condition from people… I felt isolated from other people. I was constantly afraid they were judging me, and it was very lonely.
Now that pretty much the whole world knows about my condition, it’s not like I have to worry about hiding it anymore, but I still try to avoid having an…. outburst. Just because people know, it doesn’t make it much less embarrassing when I lose control of my mind, you know? Overall, life with my alternate personalities is difficult; I guess is the best word I can use to describe it.
Despite all the difficulty they’ve given me over the years… I don’t hate them (especially now that I’m getting them under control). Except maybe Vito- he causes more trouble than all the others combined… @_@
So… yeah. It’s hard to explain, I sort of gave you the short answer, but I hope this sort of clears things up.
—Mike