PERSONA DANCING ALL OVER MY SOUL
"I generally just tumble around."

I still have a hard time pinpointing my gender because societal norms muddle up my feelings. For example, I always prefer male pronouns. Always. However, sometimes I like to present female and wear makeup, but still would like to be called male. Society doesn’t let men wear makeup or wear female clothing, so then I have to figure out if I’m just weird or actually bigender or maybe genderfluid or perhaps just a crossdresser but my biological sex does not match male, and so that makes a slew of problems, such as not being able to present female because if I do people will assume I’m not trans* anymore and it was just a phase. Thanks to societal norms and people in general, I have to box myself up in a certain appearance and demeanor to earn recognition of the gender that I am, and even then I am misgendered much too often. When I want to step outside those bonds, I’m no longer able to be called the gender I identify as, and that’s never fun, and so on…