I honestly don’t know what to say when my friends start talking smack against themselves. If anything it pisses me off because they know I love them and I do and I can’t help them not hate themselves, but at the same time the more I tell them how great they are the more they tell me they suck and it annoys me to no end. What do I say? At this point I feel like some of them are just talking down on themselves because they know a bunch of people will jump to their aid to insist it’s not true. It’s frustrating. I know how it feels to hate yourself… But at the same time it baffles me how people so openly parade how much they supposedly hate themselves? I don’t know… Maybe I was just an exception in the sense that I acted like I was perfect to hide that I thought I was the lowest scum of the earth. Honestly, I mostly just think I’m overthinking this or being a judge Jason to assume some of my friends are using their low esteem to get attention and compliments. I just wish I could tell them how wonderful they are and not be met with “No I’m not I’m trash.” Every gosh darn time.

So yeah right now I’m irritated and listed off but also just wanting to love on these people who keep bullying themselves.