I had a v similar experience in the past which makes me able to empathize w you currently and i don't have the right words but Jack ur an amazing person and you are so loved by so many and it's ok if ur not feelin strong rn bc u have ppl all around u that r willing to do the heavy lifting for u. similar to how a whole pie to urself all at once will make u sick, when u share it w friends everyone bonds and no one gets sick. sorry4 the shit metaphor it was partly bc tru& also bc it's good 2 laugh