Real Talk: Getting a therapy dog is such a miracle for me in so many ways. The primary and obvious reasons are to cope with GAD and OCD in particular, but as I’m thinking about getting ready for bed, I realized something.

I sleep with the lights on because I’m terrified of the dark, of something hiding. My mind plays tricks on me and when my fear takes over I can even hallucinate. Dogs are sensitive, though. They are incredible sensitive and aware of everything, and are quick to tense at a threat. If I look down and see Peaches sleeping calmly, or any time she’s near me just being calm and loving, I can know there’s nothing bad around me, and nothing is going to get me because she has way better senses and me and she’s not acting worried. And when I thought about that it made me so happy because tonight I’ll finally sleep with most of the lights off. It’s almost impossible to sleep well in a well-lit room, but maybe Peaches will help me learn to be able to sleep with the lights off.

“and provided us with the proper animal documentation (shits, vaccines, etc.)”

It makes me feel so relieved when professionals make typos, honestly.

College Chronicles

Fucking hell- I spent the majority of the late afternoon/early evening organizing my Calculus notes in a neat, detailed binder and writing up a review worksheet so I could practice everything on tomorrow’s exam one more time. I did my Chemistry homework and I was planning to make flashcards in a bit to get it really cemented in my mind.

The second I sit down to do the Calc review worksheet I made, I feel so tired it hurts, and my migraine inflates to a 5/10. Where did all my spoons go? I think I spent all my spoons preparing to study…. I’ll read my notes instead but it’s not the same as doing the practice problems….

This. Sucks.

How to Spaghetti Without Actually Spaghetti-ing

Trust me, I’m like ¼ Italian or some bullshit. More importantly, I’m a college kid who likes to make good food with the least amount of effort possible to fool people into thinking I have my life together.

-Grab a jar of hearty Ragu sauce and dump that shit in a pot. Add like a tablespoon of Italian seasoning and a pinch of garlic powder or something. Do NOT turn the pasta sauce above low heat and PUT A LID ON THAT POT or else there will be marinara blood all over the kitchen, I shit you not. Heed my warning. Use protection- put a lid on your pasta sauce.

-Preheat the oven to cook some frozen meatballs- Kroger brand Italian Meatballs are fucking rad and cheap so buy those like how I buy everything Kroger brand because I’m a college kid and I use my excess money on Toaster Strudels not on name-brand meatballs. Put like 12-15 on a cooking pan and pop those hot balls in the oven.

-Bring some water to a boil but don’t just boil plain-ass water, you’ve gotta commit to the well-being of this pasta. Put a splash of olive oil and a dash of salt in that there pot of water for noodles like you never tasted before unless you already do this when you cook noodles.

-Take out the meaty balls and put them in the pot of sensually simmering Ragu totally high-quality pasta sauce. Let them chill in the sauce for at least like 10-15 minutes so hold off on cooking the pasta until the balls are in the sauce. Patience is a virtue, my friend.

-Grab your noodles of choice. I prefer Angel Hair because it is the pasta of the Lord. Use half a box of pasta because cooking takes effort and this way you got like a couple days’ worth of pasta. Just make sure your selfish roommate, Jerry, doesn’t put his greasy hands on your pasta that you slaved over for twenty minutes. Make your own damn pasta, Jerry.

-Strain the pasta well in a colander or whatever device you have for the task. Wait a couple minutes while it sits, then jiggle the colander to get excess water out and all that jazz.

-Throw the sauce, balls, and pasta in a bowl, mix that shit up, and serve it to your heart’s content. Parmesan cheese is not required but highly recommended- Kroger brand Parmesan cheese, of course.

Congrats! You have sort of spaghetti-d and have created the illusion that you put effort into your dinner. Cook half-assedly and prosper, lovely people.

College Chronicles

justaprinceofthegalaxy:

Adulthood is deciding if my evening food stuffs should be my second toaster strudel of the day or cucumber and ranch or dinosaur chicken nuggets or potato chips or- too many choices. I’ve had way too much cereal today so probably something savory. I don’t really feel like using the oven…. I’ll either nom on some leftover spaghetti or cucumbers and ranch.

I almost forgot I have an Egg McMuffin in the fridge from this morning!!!

Is it bad that that’s the most excitement I’ve felt all day? …Dammit.

College Chronicles

Adulthood is deciding if my evening food stuffs should be my second toaster strudel of the day or cucumber and ranch or dinosaur chicken nuggets or potato chips or- too many choices. I’ve had way too much cereal today so probably something savory. I don’t really feel like using the oven…. I’ll either nom on some leftover spaghetti or cucumbers and ranch.

College Chronicles

After 3 hours of studying Calculus, I have to stop because my hand is cramping so bad. I’ll continue tomorrow- in a bit I may do some Chemistry work before bed, since Chemistry is all done online. Tomorrow I think I’ll dye all my hair blue between study sessions. ovo It’s so surreal to be doing homework and/or studying outside of class. I was always ‘gifted’, so I never had to try. When the classes actually got difficult around senior year, I was shell-shocked. I didn’t know how to study, because I’d never had to and nobody taught me. I failed miserably. Though now I’m trying to hard to be good at this and to be diligent and work hard. It’s not easy and I usually start studying later than I first plan, but I am studying on my own and working hard to do the best that I can without overworking myself. If you’re in college ((or really any year of school)), remember to tell yourself you’re doing great, because you are. Every day that you keep on working and keep on doing what you can, you’re doing amazing work. Cheers to you, my fellow students. We got this.

College Chronicles

I have both a Chemistry exam and a Calculus exam on Monday, and I’ve managed to study for the past 2 ½ or 3 hours with a few breaks here and there. I want to study at least 5 hours tomorrow, mostly for Calculus. I studied my ass off for Calculus last time and pulled a 94, so I’m studying even harder to try and get a repeat performance.

College Chronicles

I’m really hungry why did I only bring Peeps and a sugar cookie to work? Oh well- I’m off in about 10 minutes and then I can just walk home and reheat the leftover spaghetti. vuv

College Chronicles

I might be getting a dog on Monday! After seeing my psychiatrist the other day, he wrote me a letter of reccommendation for a companion/therapy animal. That’s not the same as a service dog, but it’s similar to how my golden retriever was at home. It’s been nice living on my own and I’m doing well in college… but, there are mental downfalls to the sudden loneliness, to having to be an adult while handling mental illness.. on Monday, I meet with the Disability Resources Employee. I’m almost sure I’ll be approved since I have documentation from my doctor. If I am approved that morning, I have put a hold on a dog I met in the shelter yesterday. We clicked right away, and if I get a dog I really want it to be her. I’m so nervous, but also hopeful. ;;;u;;;

College Chronicles

Almost done… I just need to shower and wrap up the nightly routine. ;;; Then sweet, sweet rest will be mine….

College Chronicles

There’s a small Halloween get-together at the community center tonight for housing students, but I think neurofeedback took up the rest of my spoons. I really wanted to go, but at this point it’s 50 minutes away and I’m probably going to have to stay home tonight. vnv

College Chronicles

Realistically, I’d have enough time tomorrow to comfortably finish my Calculus homework before the 11:59 pm deadline. I have 24 problems left, and I could get about 10 in the hour I have between work and class, and that just leaves 14 to do between 6 pm and 11:59 pm, which is more than enough time, especially if I start at 6 pm like a studious noodle, which I swear to myself that I will. I just… don’t have the spoons to do homework tonight. I worked really hard in class today, and driving around and going to the doctor took too much out of me, especially since today was already a low-energy high-headache day…

I’m most certainly going to be turning in early tonight. x.x

College Chronicles

It’s an extra sleepy day. ;;; I told myself I’d do 15 problems of my calculus homework, but I haven’t even gotten started- I was supposed to start over an hour ago… 

I went to the neurologist today. I stopped the topamax, and got put on a new medication to try and ease the medications. It’s hard to find things I can take because I have so many other prescriptions. xux;;;;; Let’s hope this combo works…. 3348058th time’s the charm… right?