ok so i unfollowed a bunch of people and i still am going through my followed blogs
please reblog this if you are :•mentally ill (esp. bpd, psychosis or ddnos)
•part of a system (median preferred, although multiple is fine too!)
•trans/non-straight
•over 13/under 25
•otherkin/fictionkin
•aromanticor if you post :
•pokemon
•undertale
•homestuck
•pastels
•space
•pixel art!! (note: i probably wont follow if youre cis sorry)
specify what applies to you in the tags!!!also, if you want to follow me please read the links in my description!!
Me:
//constantly desires attention from loved ones//
Also Me: //feels like a burden for even starting a conversation//
Still Me: //gets paranoid when they take more than a few minutes to respond//
Continually Me: //is literally the worst and assumes everyone secretly hates me and talking to me is a chore to them//
And Yet, Somehow Me: Meh I don't really feel like talking to people, I just don't have the energy...
Also Me: //feels like a burden for even starting a conversation//
Still Me: //gets paranoid when they take more than a few minutes to respond//
Continually Me: //is literally the worst and assumes everyone secretly hates me and talking to me is a chore to them//
And Yet, Somehow Me: Meh I don't really feel like talking to people, I just don't have the energy...
I Need to Follow More People
I’m only following like 120 people and I need more non-fandom content on my dash. I mean, if you post fandom stuff that’s okay, I just need something to break up the Undertale revolution. :’D
I want to check out and maybe talk to more spoonies, non-binary people, and so on. Basically I’ll just list what I’m looking for- feel free to reblog as a signal boost, just tag it as ‘signal boost’. Tag otherwise or don’t tag and I’ll go check your blog!
Looking For People Who Are or Who Blog About:
- Spoonies/Chronic Illness ((All kinds, but narcolepsy, cataplexy, and chronic pain specifically are relevant to me.))
- Transgender/Nonbinary People
- Neuroatypical People ((Again, all kinds, but the ones specific to me are BPD, OCD, PTSD, GAD, and Depression))
- College Students ((I just started college and I just keep blogging about my experience and would follow people who blog about their, too!))
So, if you’re any/all of the above, hit me up with a reblog! Mention in the tags which apply to you, and if you’re just boosting, tag as signal boost.
| Oct 20, 2015 — 33 notes — Tags |
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I wish at school they would talk about depression, anxiety, eating disorders, and self harm. Not just bullying. Because sometime it’s not people that make us feel like shit, it’s ourselves.
YES SOMEONE FUCKING SAID IT, YES.
(Source: sundays-suicide)
Friendly remind to neuroatypical people: You are valid. Your illness is valid. You’re not valid “in spite of your illness”, you’re not valid “even though you’re mentally ill”. You’re valid. Period. You matter, your feelings matter, your thoughts matter, and you are important.
| Jul 30, 2015 — 22 notes — Tags |
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Ended up losing it at work. Got sent home early since I can’t stop crying. That was thoroughly embarrassing.
| Jul 26, 2015 — 6 notes — Tags |
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Two bites of a chicken soft taco better get me through the day I feel so sick even from eating that much I hate depression because it’s do much more than just mental shenanigans. And then there’s the fun ED part where when I’m depressed I don’t want to eat in the first place because it makes me feel emotionally worse too.
| Jul 26, 2015 — 2 notes — Tags |
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I’m too sad to eat I will literally throw up if I eat but I’ll pass out if I don’t.
| Jul 26, 2015 — 1 note — Tags |
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mauthes asks:
"talk about" #24 and #38? (also: hi)
TW: Self-Harm, Depression
24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.
Wow, so this isn’t actually something someone SAID, but it immediately came to mind and it has stuck with me for like two and a half years now. When I was in tenth grade, that was arguably when my depression was at its worse, among my other mental illnesses. I was self-harming at the time, and one day in biology, a friend accidentally saw my forearm. I don’t exactly recall what happened, whether my sleeve flipped up or I reached for something and the scars were visible, but either way, they took notice. Near the end of class, they discreetly approached me, and although they said nothing, they took out a Sharpie and drew a butterfly on my wrist, writing their name underneath it. I don’t know if you’re familiar with The Butterfly Project, but it had some momentum at the time, and basically it was where you would draw a butterfly and write the name of a person who loved you underneath it, and it would inspire you to not self-harm because it reminded you there were people who cared and loved you. So when they did that, it really did mean the world to me. Sadly, that wasn’t the last time I cut, but I am very proud to say that I am almost nine months clean of it.
38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.
Is it really sad that I immediately thought of songs that remind me of OCs? Whether it is or not, I’m not counting OCs right now, haha.
Well, me and Matt actually have a song, which is “Amazing” by Janelle, so whenever I here that, it makes me grossly emotional and I think about them. It’s quite silly and wonderful and moving in an odd sort of way.
Literally any older song with a quirkiness to it reminds me of my friend Devo- namely “Bicycle Race” by Queen. I’m not exactly sure why, but that style of music makes me think of them.
Listening to any given song by Blood on the Dance Floor makes me simultaneously regret my old taste in music while thinking of someone I used to be close to. I don’t dislike them now, but we did grow apart, sadly. Maybe someday I’ll be able to reconnect with them, if circumstances allow. But they introduced me to BOTDF in 6th grade, so listening to those silly, fucked up songs makes me think of them in a good way.
//Also: Hi! OuO//
| Jun 23, 2015 — 2 notes — Tags |
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It’s actually much less common for a neuroatypical person to only have one diagnosis, really. A lot of neurotypical people don’t care to realize just how much mental illnesses tend to intersect. So, honestly, it’s not that far-fetched for someone to have depression, anxiety, OCD, PTSD, and other illnesses in tandem.
| Jun 1, 2015 — 8 notes — Tags |
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Having depression does NOT mean you are sad 100% of the time.
Having an eating disorder does NOT mean you have to be skinny
Having social anxiety does NOT mean can’t ever talk to people.
Having Obsessive Compulsive Disorder does NOT mean you are constantly cleaning.
Stereotypes of these serious mental illnesses and many others need to stop.
HAVING TOURETTES DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU RANDOMLY YELL CUSS WORDS
Self. Harm. Is. Not. Art.
Suicide. Is. Not. Beautiful.
Depression. Is. Not. Pretty.
Anxiety. Is. Not. Cute.
Fucking stop.
but also you can self harm and still be a piece of art
you can be suicidal and still be beautiful
you can be depressed and still be pretty
you can have anxiety and be cute
you can have a mental illness and still be beautiful but mental illness itself is not beautiful in any form
quite happy this second part was added
(Source: mxlphoria)
I am perpetually fluctuating between complete emptiness and insurmountable sadness.
| Sep 29, 2014 — 1 note — Tags |
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People who think depression is just being sad may as well think a broken leg is just some slight leg pain.
| Sep 29, 2014 — 10 notes — Tags |
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Just got to school. Two hours late. Don’t want to get out of the car. Feeling so depressed and alone right now I’m surprised I’m alive. Not even going to bother putting this on my negativity blog.
| Sep 29, 2014 — 2 notes — Tags |
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