PERSONA DANCING ALL OVER MY SOUL

Hi, I’m how-fortuitous and I’m hear to tell you all how fantastic mirthfullespurr is.

She is an absolutely fantastic artist. I wish I could draw ponies and deer like her! Real talk, literally everything she posts is adorable. Plus she puts herself out here to share her art, which I really appreciate. Seing other young artists brighten my day. It doesn’t matter what character she draws or what style she draws in, because I appreciate her skill nonetheless and the time and effort she puts into her work.

Also, she’s a really funny and kind person. If shit is going down, she’ll shoot some support my way. It really keeps me going when her and other users back me up; and I’ll always be thankful for people like espurr. She is the first to praise one of my silly headcanons or one of Irk’s fantastic text posts!

She’s such a beautiful spirit, and it breaks my heart to see her so low. All these immature anons are being toxic and downright triggering. As someone who suffers from various mental problems, they’re echoing things I used to tell myself on a daily basis, and I put myself through absolute hell.

To think that anyone would knowingly and willingly spit such venom at someone is terrible. Do they not understand how destructive that is, especially to someone who already believes that of themselves?

Espurr, I don’t care if you believe me or not; just know I’m being 100% real when I say that I think you’re amazing, and I want nothing more than you to be happy and find peace with yourself. Maybe turn off anon for a while until the toxic waste of anon hate passes by? I’ll be praying for you, and I want you to know that I always have your back. <3

Dec 5, 2013 — 12 notes — Tags

I just can’t even right now.

Who are you and what have you done with my bodaciously bombastic babefriend?

Dec 3, 2013 — 1 note — Tags
#real talk #forty gets real

Anonymous asks:

Wow.. I read ur post about the panic attack and I can't imagine how much that sucks. What exactly is a panic attack, or what is it like for u?

Well, it depends from person to person. I have multiple friends with a panic disorder or anxiety disorder, and each of them experiences panic attacks a little differently. I can tell you what happens in my experience, though even then my panic attacks vary in severity and symptoms, and sometimes are moreso fainting spells than panic attacks.

I guess I’ll use the one from today as an example. Mine almost always start when I have a migraine or tension headache (which basically feels like a really tight rubber band around your head). To begin with, that makes me really drowsy, because the only way my body knows to cope with migraines and headaches is to sleep it off, since painkillers don’t work. When I’m drowsy, I have less self-control and I feel disoriented, dizzy, and woozy. At this point, I usually sit down, and sip at some water, which works almost all the time if there’s no additional anxiety. Although I wasn’t terribly stressed in choir, we were all standing and rehearsing, and I didn’t want to draw attention to myself by sitting because the music teacher would have asked me in front of the class about it, or just told me to get up (I’m fat so that would cause some glances and comments on its own). So I remained standing, until I realized I really needed to sit down because the world was sort of spinning, and I felt my heart rate escalating because I was stressing about not being able to sit down. My entire body felt hot, my knees locked, and I could hear the warbled sound of the choir singing (I know this sounds melodramatic but this is literally what a panic attack is like) in the background. I felt almost out of body for a minute, then I blacked out. I don’t always pass out during a panic attack, but it’s been happening in the past 8 months or so. If I don’t pass out, I still am unresponsive during the main part of the attack, because I’m paralyzed with stress and adrenaline. Many people mistake my panic attacks for seizures because I am on the ground and shaking violently. I’m not really self-aware, but I’ve been told that my hand especially is jerking around and tremoring. I’ve also been told that lasts a couple minutes. If I’m conscious, I then begin to hear everything clearly, whereas it was background noise and unintelligible chatter before. My breathing slows and I feel exhausted, like I just sprinted a mile. I stay lying down for a few minutes, then slowly sit up and sip some water. Although it’s a little too late now, I take my anxiety medication to sedate me. After about fifteen minutes of rest, I’m very tired and groggy, but I’m fit to move around on my own and get back to class if this happens at school.

Basically, it’s very not fun.

Nov 20, 2013 — 0 notes — Tags

I had a panic attack for the first time since July today. As luck would have it, it happened at school, during choir. I guess I’m lucky I collapsed to the side, because I would have fallen down two risers had I fallen straight forward. Though at the same time I’m not really feeling lucky because choir is my biggest class so fifty people just stared at me while I was shaking and twitching on the ground.

It was weird. As usual I could feel it coming; I felt the anxiety and my heart rate rising, and usually I just sit down and drink water and tell someone, but today (even though one of my best friends were right beside me), I couldn’t even speak. My legs locked and I just stood there. All I remember from there was my whole body feeling on fire before I blacked out. I don’t think I was out fore more than a couple minutes, though.

I’m feeling a lot better now, as thankfully my shoulder took most of the impact of falling, so no concussions or anything awful like that. I just hate having them in public; it’s easily the worst affect my mental conditions have on me. I’d give ANYTHING to not have them in public. It’s terrifying, let alone exhausting, to be in constant fear that I’ll black out. Sometimes it’s not even a panic attack, but just a fainting spell from stress or a headache. I don’t know why this happens but it’s scary and the thought of people seeing me in such a state makes me afraid.

The office said they had to call my dad and let him know, but he didn’t bring it up (which is weird because if he knew he would mention it), so I think they forgot to call. My mom didn’t know either and was surprised when I didn’t stay after school for robotics like planned, and she’s even nosier than dad, not to mention she’d be worried and want to know what caused it (which I don’t hate; I get they care and I appreciate that but it’s hard when they demand an explanation to something I don’t know or understand).

I’m hoping for a better day tomorrow; I’m exhausted from having a headache all day. I just needed to vent it out, so here’s this wall of text.

Nov 20, 2013 — 0 notes — Tags

People who think those with mental disorders are “faking it” or milking it for the attention are the worst kind of people.

A lot of my friends suffer from mental illness, myself included. Today at robotics one of my friends passed out because of her extreme migraines and stress (an experience I’m all too familiar with). Of course one guy decides to be an asshat (a guy who wasn’t even robotics but was just loitering around in the room) and says “look she’s still breathing she’s clearly not passed out. I bet she’s faking.”.

Where do I even begins with all the things wrong with that?

Nov 15, 2013 — 4 notes — Tags

Fun Fact: My migraines are getting worse lately, and I’m not allowed to take painkillers for them.

I’m starting to get really paranoid because it’s only a matter of time before I have an anxiety attack from my migraines. I haven’t had one at school since May, and I’m hoping to keep it that way.

Stressing over this isn’t helping my anxiety, though.

Help.

Nov 13, 2013 — 0 notes — Tags

sweetcarolinedododo:

goth-ball:
…kill mike…
I can respect that you don’t like Mike, and you have every right to express your opinions, but you should be careful not to go too far. I’m following the person who made those Mike pony floaties, and a day ago or so she got upset because people were giving her grief about her pony Mike stuff, and she got very upset. I imagine if she saw that her art was used in this anti-post, she’d be very hurt again. :( You should really be careful with this kind of stuff, you could be hurting people’s feelings.

What the hell?

OP, why is it so terrible that someone is making art of a character they like? Honestly, I want to know why you’re being an asshole over someone enjoying a character and using their art skills (which the creator of those Mike ponies has in spades, might I add) to share the love.

Yeah, you have a right to an opinion, but that doesn’t give you the right to be a dick and bash on someone’s art because “ZOMG I DON’T LIKE THAT CHARACTER UGH KILL THEM” or “ZOMG PONIES?!?! WHAT THE FUCK UGH KILL IT”.

I don’t know if you’re an artist or not– if so, I’m twice as disgusted because you should know how disheartening it is when someone makes a stink about your art. If you’re not an artist, then sit the fuck down and stop being an asshat. Actually, still do that even if you’re an artist.

Summary: This is someone else’s art. They put time and effort into it, and it turned out awesome! Sure, you may not like that character or the MLP art style, but guess what? Ignore the “mike pony”, “mlp” or “mike” tags. Go on with your bad self and don’t be an asshole! Problem solved!

Nov 13, 2013 oatmealo — 21 notes — Tags

So apparently while I was gone some people got their hate on with pony Mike.

Now, if you don’t like something, cool beans. More power to you. You’re an individual.

But everyone flipping their shit because of pony Mike needs to just sit down and consider the following: You’re bitching about someone expressing their love for a character they like in their own way. You’re bitching about someone combining two things they like and expressing their artistic ability in the way they best know how.

If you’re going to get your panties in a bunch over that, you need to get off that pedestal of yours and use this nifty little feature called the “ignore” feature.

Things I have no tolerance for: “UGH PONIES THAT’S AUTOMATICALLY SHITTY AND I HAVE TO VOICE MY OPINION ON SOMEONE’S ART STYLE LIKE AN ASSHAT.”

“UGH MIKE I HATE THAT CHARACTER SO THAT’S AUTOMATICALLY SHITTY AND I HAVE TO VOICE MY OPINION ON SOMEONE’S ART OF THAT CHARACTER LIKE AN ASSHAT UGH HOW DARE THEY HAVE A FANBASE IN THE SHOW I LIKE EVERY CHARACTER MORE THAN THEM.”

Nov 11, 2013 — 7 notes — Tags

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