The next time someone tries to tell me I can’t use singular they, I’m just going to tell that they’re right. I’m not a singular entity. I’m 10,000 bees, controlling this flesh vessel as a hive mind.
The extremely talented @asphyxion was doing a special on commissions and his art style is my kryptonite, so I had to request a picture of Charoite. This is perfect- beyond what I even envisioned. I am so in love with this I really cannot even begin to describe how gorgeous this is! Please check out his blog and art- he is SO talented.
FYI to go on to develop trauma related disorders (i.e PTSD,dissociative disorders, certain personality disorders) you don’t have to experience a huge traumatic experience event like assault or extreme abuse or whatever yall think it can be brought on by traumatic grief, loss, or just a predisposed hypersensitivity to adverse experiences or mistreatment . Stop acting like you have to go through Extreme Trauma Being Killed And Dying Being Blown Up and Exploded by Bombs Everyday Thirteen Times A day Forever for your trauma to be valid lmao
(Tl;dr this is true and you don’t even have to have The One Big Trauma (or be in the military jfc) to be affected.) Additionally, Complex PTSD (C-PTSD) is a specific variant concerning experiences of no single/major/identifiable trauma event. The symptoms are very similar but vary in a handful of ways. A long period of poverty, a tumultuous childhood, an onslaught of microaggressions – all manner of things like this can lead to stress/trauma/personality disorders over time. Gaslighting and emotional abuse in general are good examples of how this works because we all agree that these are traumatic things, but they aren’t composed of significant traumatic events, they’re a collection of little instances of minor violence that the victim may not have even recognized at the time.
I WAS BROWSING MY YOUTUBE FEED B/C IT’S BEEN A FEW DAYS SINCE I CHECKED IT OUT
AND
ONE OF THE ICONS FOR A VIDEO WAS THE PUPPET FROM FNAF
I AM FU CKING TERRIFIED OF IT LAST TIME I SAW ITS JUMP SCARE I HAD A FREAKING PANIC ATTACK BECAUSE MATPAT PUT ONE IN HIS VIDEO WITH NO WARNING AND I JUST
I HATE THAT FUCKING PUPPET I HATE IT SO DAMN MUCH IT FREAKS ME OUT TO HIGH HELL
I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO SLEEP TONIGHT I HATE EVERYTHING OKAY I DON’T ACTUALLY HATE EVERYTHING BUT I’M REALLY UPSET AND AFRAID.
lemme see?? if i can help maybe
here’s this for a calming atmosphere of your choosing (hopefully) n here’s a nice drawing app :)
now get some comfort food?? or maybe just smthin warm?? maybe even if u cant sleep u will have sm nice things to distract urself with!!
Thank you for those great resources. ;;;
I’ll try to unwind but I’m so stressed and worried right now- everything keeps going downhill and now one of my mutuals posted a distressing message and I fear I’m too late.
Did you know that they train service dogs specifically for narcolepsy? I just found this out and I am floored.
Narcolepsy service dogs make sure their handler wakes up on time, can detect microsleeps and wake them up from them, can predict cataplexy episodes and even be trained to use their back as a place for the handler to slump over instead of taking a hard fall to the ground. They can be trained to remind their handler to take stimulant medications and even alert them of certain times of day just to keep them grounded, as well as nudge the handler every so often to make sure they’re attentive. They even are equipped to handle panic attacks since many people with narcolepsy have depression and anxiety from the EDS and cataplexy.
I am so upset that I don’t have money- service dogs are expensive. But could you imagine? The thought makes me want to cry in a good way. Being able to be out in public and not be constantly afraid of a cataplexy episode because the dog would give me a warning if it sensed I was slipping out of it, being able to go through my daily routine and not miss half of it due to microsleeps, being able to have that reassurance that I’ll be woken up or if I start to panic that I’ll be consoled. I seriously am blown away by how much easier and safer my life would be if I had a service dog? I don’t talk about it a lot but honestly? Narcolepsy has huge consequences and it really does make a massive impact on how I’m able to live. I’ll make a big old post about it at some point, probably, but I just… damn. I just wish I had the money because just thinking about this makes me want a service animal so badly. My life could be so much easier, so much safer.
At the very least, its incredible that narcolepsy service dogs exist in the first place.
Next up on the chopping block is the magical babu, Bastien. This contains talk of suicidal idealization and self-harm, so read with caution, my lovely readers! The truth is about to come out.
