I can’t help but “absorb” the energy of those around me, so to speak. I’m sure most people do, to some extent, but I’m the type to feel things so deeply that it’s a terrible thing when not kept under control. Frankly, it’s rarely under control. In an odd way, though, I’m glad I’m this way. It reassures me that I DO feel for others and not just myself. As of late, I’ve come to realize that I have a persistent fear of lacking empathy. To be incapable of seeing value and interest in other people… sometimes I worry that I dip into that state of mind. I don’t quite understand my thought process. I can’t keep up with it, either, and that causes even more concern. I can’t particularly decipher myself.

College Chronicles

Me and Peaches just got up for the day- well, I did. Peaches wants to keep sleeping, so I let her come up on the couch and curl up. I want to train her to sleep in her doggie bed beside me, so I only put her on the couch after I turned on the lights to show her sleepy time is when she can’t be on the couch. She actually did stay in her doggie bed by my side the whole night. 

I woke up like usual but at 5am I had to get up to use the restroom, and it woke her up enough that I came back and saw she was whining by the door. I’m becoming more and more pleasantly surprised that she’s already decently house-trained. She had one accident when she first got here, but a lot of dogs do that in a new environment. Other than that, she’s caught on to sitting by the back door and whining when she has to go to the bathroom. If I don’t notice, she’ll walk over to where I keep her leash and my boots, and she whines there. Either way she very much knows to let me know she wants to go outside, so I took her out at 5am before getting back into bed, and then we both dozed off again. 

As time goes on I’ll be further training her and making sure she’s used to apartment and a decent routine. I’m working teaching her ‘sit’ and once she masters that I’ll try stay or lie down. She doesn’t need to know too many tricks, just the basic things. She’s so precious- I’m so glad I got a 2 y/o dog- that way I know her personality and her approximate full-grown size. Plus, I’d rather adopt a dog a couple years old anyways because often times dogs get ignored as soon as potential owners see their age. 

Milo adopted a total sweetheart of a dog that’s 8 years old, and he’s such a gentle and cheerful dog that it’s shocking he was in the shelter for over a month. Apparently, though, it’s because people saw the number 8 and kept walking. I 100% recommend getting a dog that’s at least 2, especially if you won’t have a lot of time to train it.

People sometimes ask me why almost all of my characters are queer, POC, neuroatypical, or a mix of the three.

And I kind of wonder why that’s surprising, considering that there are in fact queer POC, neuroatypical queer folk, neuroatypical POC, and neuroatypical queer POC. Intersectionality is a major thing, and there’s practically no representation for characters that fall into more than one minority.

Isn’t that the weird thing?