PERSONA DANCING ALL OVER MY SOUL
"I generally just tumble around."

I want you all to know that you’re beautiful.

Not in spite of your flaws- you’re beautiful, all of you. 

I know it’s easy to be insecure, to have those traits and features that make you cringe. Self-love isn’t easy, and it’s a journey. Either way, I wanted to just remind you that no matter how you feel about your appearance, that there is beauty in you. Inside and out, there is no “wrong” part of your body.

Those that criticize your appearance have their vision clouded with judgment. The people that matter see clearly, and the best people in this world see beauty in everything. Even if you don’t see it, even if you avoid mirrors, I want you to know that I think you’re beautiful.

It’s been said before and it’s indeed cheesy, but please, don’t forget: the elements that compose you are the very same as those which knit all of the constellations of stars in the night sky, which swirl and sway in the fluid grace that is the ocean, which blossom forth in endless hues of fragrant petals. You’re a piece of this universe, you’re crafted by its finest materials. Not only that, but you are made of the exact components that crafted your best friend, you biggest idol, your hero… Everything you admire came from what you already have. You are not an insignificant outlier; you’re entwined with this universe and its order, with a profoundly precise place among us all.

My best friend and rock was asleep, but I’m not giving up. Some really great people reached out and messaged me, which encouraged me. I’m keeping my record- it’s still been over two and a half months since I last cut.

I wrote a long, self-affirming message on my white board. I grabbed the tissues, a small snack, and some vitamin water to keep by my bed, and then put a “relaxation” blend in my oil diffuser. Now to just put on some Game Grumps episodes and lay down for sleep.

Despite still being in a low place, it brings me up just a bit to know that I was able to stand up to those self-damaging urges that started when my PTSD developed. It’s so hard- it’s the fight of my life and I couldn’t do it without you guys and all the people who support me and lift me up. I’m so blessed for every kind word and every act of support given to me.

Love Yourself

And even you don’t yet, there’s always someone who will.

Daily Reminders

-Take your medications.

-Drink water.

-Eat something; anything.

-Think of all the things you love about yourself.

-Sit up straight, especially if you’re wearing a binder or tight clothing.

-Know your limits, and take care of yourself.

If you’re trying to learn to love yourself but society is telling you that you shouldn’t at every turn and you’re constantly in an enormous uphill battle clap your hands

*CLAPS VIGOROUSLY*

I’M AN OVERCOMER

*chants loudly*

I AM AN OVERCOMER

I’M WORTH IT

I DESERVE HAPPINESS

I DESERVE TO FEEL SAFE

I AM BEAUTIFUL/HANDSOME/DAMN FINE

I AM SMART/CREATIVE/WISE

I AM VALUABLE